Thursday, July 22, 2010

The Conundrum

I haven't written a lot as of late, but I would be lying if I said that I hadn't been doing a lot of thinking.

I've come to realize that we, and by 'we' I mean humans, often want contradictory things. Most people want consistency and security, yet at the same time most want change and freedom. We often want other people to make decisions for us, and simultaneously we want to be able to make our own decisions. To add to this we  often want what we cannot, or do not have and then when we do have it we no longer want it. I don't really understand this aspect of human nature, but I believe that it is linked to our carnal attributes of ungratefulness and selfishness. This aspect of human nature creates quite the conundrum, and sets us up for some very interesting and disappointing situations.

I believe that much of this could be bypassed if we remembered one piece of information:

"Every blessing ignored becomes a curse." - Paulo Cohelo, The Alchemist

Life is the greatest blessing of all, and if we ignore it and don't acknowledge it as the blessing it is then it becomes a curse. If we recognized all the blessings in our lives then we would be content with our situations and events in life and wouldn't always be seeking those things we don't have.

On a more personal note, I want change and progress in my own life, yet I am scared to death of that same change and progress and I kind of wish I could just stay in my comfort zone aka Logan. But I know that this change will be good for me and help me grow into a better, smarter, faster, handsomer, more desirable, funnier, nicer, warmer, more Jewish, and happier person. I just need to recognize all these opportunities as a blessing and I will be able to take full advantage of them all...life is about change and mine is just about to get a big dose of it. I'm not gonna lie I am a little bit scared, but I can't wait to see what is in store for me.

I love you all Marta.

3 comments:

Cassidy said...

i've missed your posts. favorite part about this one? more jewish. I expect the next time i see you, you'll be more jewish!! Good luck out there!

Emo Henshaw said...

LOVE your blog. I hope you write more with this new adventure you are about to take on. I am so excited for you. As someone who has been in a new adventure for seven months now.... it is ALL about the attitude. You have to remember that. :)

Kirsten Rappleye said...

BZ, I've thought about this post probably 3 or 4 times since I read it... which means, I think, that you did a good job on it. Very thought provoking and intelligible. You make some great points. So thanks! :)

PS...are you really Jewish? ;)